Apple Of My Eye Book Tour – Extract
Looking for your next read? Then, why not check out this extract from Clare Allanâ€™s new book called â€˜Apple Of My Eyeâ€™ and see if itâ€™s next on your TBR pile.
I leave him to sleep. A couple of slices of toast and a cup of decaf tea later, my brain still doesnâ€™t want to switch off. I sit in the living room, trying to distract myself from my thoughts by watching some American TV show in which a bride-to-be has to choose between a brand-new wedding gown or having her motherâ€™s wedding dress remade into something more suitable for a modern bride.
But, of course, my mind keeps drifting back to my own wedding and my own marriage. To my husband lying upstairs resting before his next work trip. I know I should trust him. I think I do trust him. Mostly. But I wonder, should I be asking more questions?
Maybe if I have a look at his emails. His phone. His wallet. Would I find something to confirm my worst fears or would finding nothing reassure me?
Iâ€™ve never snooped on Martin before. Iâ€™ve never felt the need and I do feel guilty. I actually feel like an actor in a soap opera as I walk to the dining table, where his suit jacket is draped over the back of a chair. Delving into the pockets, I pull out a receipt for a single cup of coffee and a chicken salad sandwich. A half-empty packet of chewing gum. Assorted small change amounting to seventy-eight pence and some fluff.
Not even Columbo could find evidence of foul behaviour in that. Chiding myself, I put everything back as I found it, feeling like Iâ€™m the one whoâ€™s betrayed him. I suppose I have. Iâ€™ve doubted him.
I probably still do, a little.
Taking a deep breath, I remind myself to be mindful. To be in the moment. Itâ€™s a method we use with our patients to help with anxiety. Our patients who have real problems. Mine are nothing in comparison.
I read this book recently and itâ€™s a thrilling story about the power of a motherâ€™s love.
You can buy â€˜Apple Of My Eyeâ€™ from Amazon and is available to buy from other good bookshops.